song: i drive alone
artist: esthero
album: we r in need of a musical revolutIon!
“…to the place i know
inside my heart
where i used to go
to get brave and…“
Song: Swallow Me
Artist: Esthero
Album: Breath From Another
The slowest melodies coated me
Soothing rhythms stoked the fire in my belly
Music is the man that made a woman out of me
The purest voices call to me, deafening as the cry of 10,000 babies
Music was the lamb that made a lion out of me
Long as I have my voice, I don’t need arms to hold
I never need arms to hold me, swallow me
Recognizing, realizing
Recognize between the lines of what you feel and what you be
You can be so lost and so found
Oh, deep inside of me, swallow me
The composition fractured me
Yet I pieced into the girl I long to be
When I fall apart that’s when the notes will swallow me
Long as I have my voice, I don’t need arms to hold
Long as you have your voice, you don’t need arms to hold
You’ll never need arms to hold you
You’ll never need arms to hold me
Recognizing, realizing
Recognize between the lines of what you feel and what you be
You can be so lost and so found
Oh, deep inside of me, swallow me
Recognize, realize, utilizing
Oh, swallow me
Utilize, recognize, realize in you and me and these arms belong to you
It’s all inside of you, it’s all inside of me
You look but you don’t see, it’s deep inside of you, deep inside of me
Swallow me
Song: I Get Down (Organic Beat Drop)
Artist: Esthero
Album: I Get Down (Organic Beat Drop)
“darling/ this is music/ we make
our own / make/
our own…”
excited to start this again.
…and because intent and words and understanding matter:
obsession |əbˈseSHən|
noun
• an idea or thought that continually preoccupies or intrudes on a person’s mind
1. “caught a long wind”
2. the life + expression - the words of Ntozake Shange (and more and then some)
3. laffy taffy. (the banana flavor is life)
4. Cheryl Clarke (and “The Never-Ending Resource that is Black Queerness”)
5. black queers in film.
7. smiling. (…who knew).
8. “you’re delicious / you’re delicious…”
9. the number 5.
10. bravery + healing. recognizing the bravery in healing. anticipating the look of bravery after healing.
11. orgasms. the spit and release. the jerk and shake as i….
11a. exploring desire.
12. lips: full lips. lips that speak. lips that move and dance. lips that convey nuance and subtle and blatant wants.
13. silence.
“superheroes”
esthero
”...i could be sweet
i could be young, and fresh
if i weren’t so old and used
and wet and wet, i am wet.”
esthero is always right on time.
